I knew that this was gonna be an issue in the game at some point in time. I knew it and I didn't want to think about it so I didn't and now it actually IS an issue and I don't want to deal with it because I'm going to look bad if I tell her no but I don't want another Master and I mean I like Master Ti and everything but I just no. It isn't right, its like, I don't know, I guess I kind of knew that if I was going to be there and a jedi and not dead it would have to happen but I kind of liked the floating around thing without having to be tied down to anybody or to pretend to do it and I don't like thinking about this because its like they want to change me and whose bright racist idea was it to put the two togruta together anyway? I mean HELLO its not like people won't NOTICE anyway, not that anybody there is SANE but Masters Luminara and Ti its that I don't want to be anybody else's padawan even at a game and you know, they could have asked US if it was okay before they went on talking about it and I mean I know she's just thinking about it right now, but the fact that she posted about it makes the players expect it and I don't want to think about it or deal with it right now. It's not that its going to change things with my real master or that it'll wreck things but I don't want to have two and to have to pretend that I'm going to be able to bond with her or work with her or anything like that. I mean that's not who I am, she's all brainy and smart and I'm smart but I'm more action and I don't want this to ruin everything but I don't want to leave either and I'm so confused and I just don't know what's going to happen and how to deal with it and I can't tell him any of this because he won't get it and will be all 'its just a game' or whatever and like it really *is* just a game but it's also sorta real in a vague way and if I say anything in game they'll all think I'm being stupid or an idiot and I'm supposed to be open to new experiences but I just don't want to do this. It doesn't feel right to me even if its interesting and everything. I want MY messed up master who can't really teach me how to use force hearing because he has no idea what its like and my messed up master who sneaks out to the dump at three am and is gone for ages and thinks I don't know and my messed up master who teases me about the idiot D'artagnan thing and my idiot master who didn't like the idea that I was in love with my halloween costume and went on about how good jedi don't pretend to be other people, but the next day brought me accessories for it and wore a costume that matched it. I mean you're supposed to love your master, right? I don't think I can fake loving anybody else.

I don't know what to do...

-Ahsoka