in_sars_head

For the big fat Orcadian Wedding

2009-01-04T03:11:01Z

A or B?

A is winning at the moment, due to the fact that "blood and bits of skin won't collect in the knotwork as easily" or something.

Men...

Rab: -_-

2009-01-03T04:08:37Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/redbeltknight/1353.html

Unrelated to Camelot

2008-12-01T05:57:40Z

...You really do understand me. I'm not sure if this makes me want to hug you or to kill you. Maybe both.
-Wouldn't you like to know.

Gareth: Screw the other journal.

2008-12-01T05:55:04Z

Lyrics to the song currently describing my life...

Good sir, I now present myself before you.
With velvet robes and lilies in my hair,
My ladies do their best with what they're given,
And I only pray that you will find me fair.

I ask you leave a penny for the bargeman
And one in penance for the hearts you break.
And keep these words forever as reminder
Of what sends a dying lily to the lake.

Dear Lancelot, my sorrow clad in silver,
You see my thoughts return to you again.
You came to me as others come a-courting
But nothing is with you as other men.

I ask you leave a penny for the sermon
And another for the errors that you make.
And keep these words forever as reminder
of what sends a dying lily to the lake.

With trembling hands I held your life inside you
But failed to earn your favour for my own.
Your coppers were an empty consolation,
For my needs are met by you, and you alone.

I ask you leave a penny for the water
And another for the liberties you take.
And keep these words forever as reminder
of what sends a dying lily to the lake.
-Heather Dale

Do Not Want.

2008-11-08T08:00:29Z

I knew that this was gonna be an issue in the game at some point in time. I knew it and I didn't want to think about it so I didn't and now it actually IS an issue and I don't want to deal with it because I'm going to look bad if I tell her no but I don't want another Master and I mean I like Master Ti and everything but I just no. It isn't right, its like, I don't know, I guess I kind of knew that if I was going to be there and a jedi and not dead it would have to happen but I kind of liked the floating around thing without having to be tied down to anybody or to pretend to do it and I don't like thinking about this because its like they want to change me and whose bright racist idea was it to put the two togruta together anyway? I mean HELLO its not like people won't NOTICE anyway, not that anybody there is SANE but Masters Luminara and Ti its that I don't want to be anybody else's padawan even at a game and you know, they could have asked US if it was okay before they went on talking about it and I mean I know she's just thinking about it right now, but the fact that she posted about it makes the players expect it and I don't want to think about it or deal with it right now. It's not that its going to change things with my real master or that it'll wreck things but I don't want to have two and to have to pretend that I'm going to be able to bond with her or work with her or anything like that. I mean that's not who I am, she's all brainy and smart and I'm smart but I'm more action and I don't want this to ruin everything but I don't want to leave either and I'm so confused and I just don't know what's going to happen and how to deal with it and I can't tell him any of this because he won't get it and will be all 'its just a game' or whatever and like it really *is* just a game but it's also sorta real in a vague way and if I say anything in game they'll all think I'm being stupid or an idiot and I'm supposed to be open to new experiences but I just don't want to do this. It doesn't feel right to me even if its interesting and everything. I want MY messed up master who can't really teach me how to use force hearing because he has no idea what its like and my messed up master who sneaks out to the dump at three am and is gone for ages and thinks I don't know and my messed up master who teases me about the idiot D'artagnan thing and my idiot master who didn't like the idea that I was in love with my halloween costume and went on about how good jedi don't pretend to be other people, but the next day brought me accessories for it and wore a costume that matched it. I mean you're supposed to love your master, right? I don't think I can fake loving anybody else.

I don't know what to do...

-Ahsoka

in_sars_head @ 2008-10-06T22:56:00

2008-10-07T02:57:45Z

I lied tonight, you know.

-Wouldn't you like to know?

Gareth: -_-

2008-09-21T19:13:27Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/prettyhands/605.html?mode=reply

Sir Thomas a'Becket though not the priest...

2008-08-18T04:37:10Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/orcadian/718.html
-Agravaine

Sir Gareth: SOS:Stroppy Obstinate Squires

2008-08-13T18:46:34Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/prettyhands/500.html?mode=reply

Rab: Oh my GOD

2008-07-10T03:30:16Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/redbeltknight/1223.html

Rab: Open Mouth, Insert Foot

2008-06-21T18:06:03Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/redbeltknight/782.html

Rab: Here at the end of all things

2008-05-30T03:58:40Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/redbeltknight/553.html

Cecily Smith: If There's A Prize For Rotten Judgement...

2008-05-21T19:10:51Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/msmidshipman/388.html?mode=reply

Rab: New Fangled Internet Ramblings

2008-04-19T16:39:15Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/redbeltknight/486.html?mode=reply

Agravaine: The Old Code and other things

2008-04-19T15:42:31Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/orcadian/284.html?mode=reply

"Don't Read This": Eric

2008-04-19T13:27:25Z

http://www.commiejournal.com/users/cavalier/337.html

Just LOOK at what I found!

2008-04-02T08:43:06Z

I love the internet

-Jonas

Elfhild?

2008-03-29T08:29:44Z

I think I finally got it right, my love, even if it is years later.
He certainly is MY son isn't he?
-Theoden

I'm an asshole...

2008-03-29T08:25:52Z

...So what would I do if this was something Eomer had pulled?

Kari
Sar
Imrahil(s)
Dene
Theoden
James
Lancelot
Gawain
Boromir...

I think that's everyone I need to apologize to right now, personally anyway. If you feel like I've missed you or you think of someone, let me know?

Yeah...

-Dred

Notice:

2008-03-08T20:00:45Z

I will be out for a few days at the most, certainly for the rest of today and I am not sure of the rest. If I have any luck in this world, then Sir Agravaine will not make trouble for the rest of you, no one will be destroyed in the process, and nothing horrible will occur. If this is not the case, Sir Gawain knows where I may be found, I have left instructions as to that. I will return of course, I simply must do it carefully but there is no reason I should not suceed on this mission and I think it important enough to take what small risk there is to myself.

Good Luck to the rest of you.

-Lancelot

in_sars_head @ 2008-03-05T14:21:00

2008-03-05T19:22:20Z

I would say that this afternoon has crossed from being plainly wrong to very, very much more wrong.
And yet still, I do not mind this...

-Lancelot

in_sars_head @ 2008-03-05T13:52:00

2008-03-05T18:55:20Z

Five years ago for myself and many more for most of the rest of you.
Twas what Mr. Merriman would have called a waste of lives, but I do not know yet myself, what I should call it.
To Boston on the Fifth of March. May we always remember.
-Benjamin Davidson

in_sars_head @ 2008-02-29T02:02:00

2008-02-29T07:05:56Z

It is always during the best stories. If by best you take that to mean most personally humilating. One tech support conversation after fifty attempts to restart the internet box later and we find that it was their own fault.

For the record, the story I was telling occured the night of Gareth's knighting when all of us were in various stages of non sobriety. I do not know why I was speaking of it again when I have said I would not but there we are again and God only knows why...

-Lancelot

Close enough?

2008-02-26T07:38:15Z

For a first try, my lady says that I can live with this.
If she insists then so be that. Far be it from me to say the eye color is frightening to me.
However, this man did have nearly my own hair and once darkened...it is not SO terrible a likeness is it?

As to the rest of the things we learned tonight...I do not dare mention those just yet until Gawain and I have had the time to speak with Agravaine again, with Gareth and Ragnell, maybe Francis...

Somehow I am a part of that decision despite that I am not one of theirs by very much, if any blood. All the same they ask me to be there anyway as who I am now and so I will do that gladly. My lady has invested in me something serious which I may not deserve but I think we none of us deserve so many of those things which we are given in this world.

And...I love her, I feel strongly for this place and whatever is in my power, I will work to bring them back the faith they need to touch so badly no matter what that is in...

I owe that much at the very least...

-Lancelot

in_sars_head @ 2008-02-18T04:19:00

2008-02-18T09:28:47Z

"I just let them say it. I didn't try to stop things. Why?"

"I think that they feel badly not because it happened, but because YOU do."

***
My Lady. If there is one thing which I may try to make clear to you tonight, it is that you bear no more responsibility for their behavior than you bear for my own. It is not wrong for you to feel those other things which you feel while this is happening. Of anyone, you have ever deserved happiness and there is no denying it because you think that you do not feel bad enough.

Perhaps there is a way yet to fix these things. We will look together and for you, I will do whatever is most needed in order that we may set them right. You are owed this much and should not need to feel such shame for these things other people did.

I hardly think that running away from instant messenger and never signing on again is going to change that. You take too much blame upon yourself for those things that they all said today both inside the window and outside of it. That such things happen is not your fault nor within your control.

I am certain that she does not hate you for it.

-Lancelot

You have yet to claim your gift from me also. When you would like to do that, let me know.