Midshipman Bolitho makes me realize just how far I've fallen and to what pit of impropriety and inappropriateness I have condemned my very inappropriate crew. This could become, it in fact is a problem that I ought address at some point in time.

Due to our small numbers, and the fact that we consist of mostly officers and one seaman, we fraternize far far more than we ought to have. Archie, Bush, Ms Smith and I spend too much time with Styles. In addition to this, Miss Bush and Miss Kitty spend more time than is appropriate on the ship with no chaperones in sight. This is... concerning to say the very least.

I really had ought to put a stop to it, yet I enjoy it. I enjoy being here and things proceeding as they do. This makes for a terrible captaincy and I never wanted that much either. Why is it that when I am finally happy, I come to understand that I am wrong, completely wrong and need for these things to stop? How can I possibly come to enforce these things?

Would that I knew or had some counsel in this matter...